Let it be

Life has ups and downs, specially when it involves love. If we didn't have love, we wouldn't suffer as much as we do. Last night I started feeling this intense hole in my chest, and started wondering about WHY I was feeling that way. Of course the answer was because of my exboyfriend, but, is it really necessary that people complicate things so much? When my boyfriend and I were together, I tried not to make him problems about anything, but sometimes I couldn't hold it and a problem started, because of jealousy or another ridiculous thing, I guess I kinda pushed him away from me.

Ladies, my advice to you is to leave your man in peace, no guy likes bullshit problems, because they are so simple (even though some guys behave like ladies in their period, i'll make a post about them later).

I guess if people stopped complicating things more than they should be, we could all have a happy ending. But, right now, what do I do to stop feeling this hole in my chest? The answer is the most ridiculous answer people give to you, but although it sounds impossible, it actually works - TIME. I must say, two months ago this hole was a lot bigger, now it's healing, all because TIME HAS PASSED. 

I love him, I miss him, I miss our moments, our jokes, our fight, i miss him in every way, but i know i have to be strong and to keep thinking he is never coming back, because every time I try to talk to him, he pushes me away, and if there's an undenieble truth is that a guy who wants to be with you, he will make it happen, and my guy just wants to forget about. So I keep my head up, i'm going to start going to the gym, loose a little weight and smile, so he regrets loosing me. 

Summertime means music

Here, in Peru, it's finally starting to warm up. This has been a cold winter, and yet I thought about summer all year long.

When summer arrives I tend to download all this new songs and a lot, a LOT of old songs that bring me back memories of past summers. I have always associated summer with moments, memories and fun. I have a lot of good memories, the only problem is: what happens if the past two summers you have spent them with your exboyfrined in your beachhouse? seriously, i don't know what i'm going to do, i used to love to go to the beach and hang out with my boyfriend, and go all by myself as well, however i guess I'm not gonna be able to go alone for all those stupid memories i made with him. 

I hope, that in January, when summer arrives, i'll be over him and just remember fun moments and instead of crying, i'll smile, briefly, and carry on with my sunny day.

 

One of these mornings you're gonna rise up singing
And you'll spread your wings and you'll take to the sky

Summertime - Norah Jones cover

Best day ever?

Yesterday I saw this elderly couple walking down the street holding hands, and it hit me: Oh my god I miss my exboyfriend. Yeah, I'm such a romantic. Have you ever felt your relationship was so perfect you suddenly became afraid that anything would happen to ruin your world? That happened to me almost three months ago, we were incredibly happy, even my friends told me: I you guys ever break up, there will be no hope for other couples because you guys are so perfect and so in love. Well, apparently he wasn't that in love, so from one week to another it was over. He told me: "i love you but we cannot be together because i feel i can't trust you".

I told him I understood and well, I left him alone, bacause at the end, we just doesn't want to be with but... SERIOUSLY?! from almost two year I'd done nothing but prove my unconditional love and he tells me doesn't trust me?!, like ...FOR REAL?. I'm like: ok dude i get it, but you don't have to be such a coward and make it look it is my fault because you no longer want a girlfriend.

Ladies, seriously guys can be as sneaky and planified as we can, they just make it look like they don't care.

So I'll write about my post break-up recovery, but today I can tell you I'm ready to rock this world.

I heard this song, that made me realize that I should't wait for nobody to be happy, not even the guy I love.

no matter where life takes me, find me with a smile
pursuit to be happy only laughing like a child
I never thought life would be this sweet
It got me cheesing from cheek to cheek

and I ain't gonna wait for nothing cause that just ain't my style
life couldn't get better, this gon' be the best day ever

 I hope you enjoy it as much as I did: Best day ever - Mac Miller 

One night

feeling sassy, inspired, creative, artistic, I wanted to build this blog for me and other as crazy as me, that like to meditate, think deep, and to let go of the overwhelming status quo of the world. We are all dreamers trying to find our way, and find inspiration in random stuff around us, with a sick mind "those who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do", some people will think it isn't worth it, but myself and my random junk mind, believe it is. 

i'm here to write and share thoughts and inspiration for me, you, us.  I collect quotes and pictures, love to take them too, i hate running out of time during the day to do all the thing i want to do, i love sunsets and like being sensitive enough to cry every time i feel happy, sad or frustrated. i just want to be myself in every way possible, like Cobain said: "it's better to be hated for what you are, than to be loved for what you are not".

cheers