Endorfines make you happy...?

It is true that every time I weigh myself I realize I haaave to start loosing weight! I do not consider myself actually FAT, I mean if you saw me walking down the street you wouldn't say: omg look a fat girl!, but I have to admit I could be in better shape.

So I decided a while ago to start looking at "fitspiration" photos on pinterest and I gotta say everytime I see all those "no pain no gain" pictures I get pretty encouraged but when I go out for a run I wake up the next day SO SORE that I stop exercising for three days and loose all the habit I acquired. 

Something funny is that I actually have a "cardio" playlist and an alarm clock on my cellphone that rings at 6am for me to go out and start exercising.

My perfect day plan is:

6h: wake-up

6h15 - 7h15: run

7h30: shower

8h: breakfast

9h: 19h go to work

19h30: abs

22h: sleep

LOL LMAO LMFAO OMG

That has never happened. 

My current day plan is:

6h: wake-up from my every day "go out for a run" alarm

6h - 8:30: more sleep

8h45:  speed of light breakfast

9h - 19h: work

19h30: tv

23h: sleep

Do you ever tell yourself I AM GOING TO DO THIS! and you NEVER do? And you tell it to yourself again and you never do it again? hahaha that happens to me and exercise! But isn't it SO FREAKING dissapointing? I hate feeling like that. But today I am making a change. I promise. There is nothing worse than dissapointing yourself, and I just decided to stop doing it.

I am going to make an experiment doing my perfect day plan this week NO MATTER WHAT! I'll report it back here!

Wish me luck.

Back?

So... I just realized the last time I wrote in this blog was in 2013! Well... it's 2015 now and I gota keep up with all the things I want to do.

I started this blog hoping it would be a place where I could just write all the trashy thoughts that comes up to my mind without caring for appereances. I realized its hard. It's hard because the world itself revolves around appearances, first impressions and sort of... social achievements I guess? Anyway I decided to care less. Care less of all the first impressions and just be myself. 

It's not like my natural self is a random unlikeable person but I tend to be a little more shy and self absorved when I'm around people I do not really know... or know but I don't feel comfortable with.

Thinking positively... I will try to write as much as I can. There is SO MUCH I want to say to everyone! Things that I am sure everyone (or at least almost everyone) thinks or feels but never says... or never reads about.

Websites and social networks are sorrounded with: "be yourself!" "get away from your comfort zone" "you need to make mistakes to learn" "live your life but do not let your life live you", sort of quotes and speeches, however IT IS NOT THAT EASY! And take it from a person that really feels encouraged when I read those inspirational quotes.... theory its easier than practice, especially in your "life facts".

Anyway... I do hope people feel related with my sort of trashy and anti-status quo thoughts.

Cheers

Let it be

Life has ups and downs, specially when it involves love. If we didn't have love, we wouldn't suffer as much as we do. Last night I started feeling this intense hole in my chest, and started wondering about WHY I was feeling that way. Of course the answer was because of my exboyfriend, but, is it really necessary that people complicate things so much? When my boyfriend and I were together, I tried not to make him problems about anything, but sometimes I couldn't hold it and a problem started, because of jealousy or another ridiculous thing, I guess I kinda pushed him away from me.

Ladies, my advice to you is to leave your man in peace, no guy likes bullshit problems, because they are so simple (even though some guys behave like ladies in their period, i'll make a post about them later).

I guess if people stopped complicating things more than they should be, we could all have a happy ending. But, right now, what do I do to stop feeling this hole in my chest? The answer is the most ridiculous answer people give to you, but although it sounds impossible, it actually works - TIME. I must say, two months ago this hole was a lot bigger, now it's healing, all because TIME HAS PASSED. 

I love him, I miss him, I miss our moments, our jokes, our fight, i miss him in every way, but i know i have to be strong and to keep thinking he is never coming back, because every time I try to talk to him, he pushes me away, and if there's an undenieble truth is that a guy who wants to be with you, he will make it happen, and my guy just wants to forget about. So I keep my head up, i'm going to start going to the gym, loose a little weight and smile, so he regrets loosing me. 

Summertime means music

Here, in Peru, it's finally starting to warm up. This has been a cold winter, and yet I thought about summer all year long.

When summer arrives I tend to download all this new songs and a lot, a LOT of old songs that bring me back memories of past summers. I have always associated summer with moments, memories and fun. I have a lot of good memories, the only problem is: what happens if the past two summers you have spent them with your exboyfrined in your beachhouse? seriously, i don't know what i'm going to do, i used to love to go to the beach and hang out with my boyfriend, and go all by myself as well, however i guess I'm not gonna be able to go alone for all those stupid memories i made with him. 

I hope, that in January, when summer arrives, i'll be over him and just remember fun moments and instead of crying, i'll smile, briefly, and carry on with my sunny day.

 

One of these mornings you're gonna rise up singing
And you'll spread your wings and you'll take to the sky

Summertime - Norah Jones cover

Best day ever?

Yesterday I saw this elderly couple walking down the street holding hands, and it hit me: Oh my god I miss my exboyfriend. Yeah, I'm such a romantic. Have you ever felt your relationship was so perfect you suddenly became afraid that anything would happen to ruin your world? That happened to me almost three months ago, we were incredibly happy, even my friends told me: I you guys ever break up, there will be no hope for other couples because you guys are so perfect and so in love. Well, apparently he wasn't that in love, so from one week to another it was over. He told me: "i love you but we cannot be together because i feel i can't trust you".

I told him I understood and well, I left him alone, bacause at the end, we just doesn't want to be with but... SERIOUSLY?! from almost two year I'd done nothing but prove my unconditional love and he tells me doesn't trust me?!, like ...FOR REAL?. I'm like: ok dude i get it, but you don't have to be such a coward and make it look it is my fault because you no longer want a girlfriend.

Ladies, seriously guys can be as sneaky and planified as we can, they just make it look like they don't care.

So I'll write about my post break-up recovery, but today I can tell you I'm ready to rock this world.

I heard this song, that made me realize that I should't wait for nobody to be happy, not even the guy I love.

no matter where life takes me, find me with a smile
pursuit to be happy only laughing like a child
I never thought life would be this sweet
It got me cheesing from cheek to cheek

and I ain't gonna wait for nothing cause that just ain't my style
life couldn't get better, this gon' be the best day ever

 I hope you enjoy it as much as I did: Best day ever - Mac Miller 

One night

feeling sassy, inspired, creative, artistic, I wanted to build this blog for me and other as crazy as me, that like to meditate, think deep, and to let go of the overwhelming status quo of the world. We are all dreamers trying to find our way, and find inspiration in random stuff around us, with a sick mind "those who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do", some people will think it isn't worth it, but myself and my random junk mind, believe it is. 

i'm here to write and share thoughts and inspiration for me, you, us.  I collect quotes and pictures, love to take them too, i hate running out of time during the day to do all the thing i want to do, i love sunsets and like being sensitive enough to cry every time i feel happy, sad or frustrated. i just want to be myself in every way possible, like Cobain said: "it's better to be hated for what you are, than to be loved for what you are not".

cheers